always.on.the.catch.up.

this past few months i have been struggling to keep everything in place. note the emphasis on italicized and bold words. and though i have been able to tread and keep my head above water, i'm still looking forward to the day when i can slow things down a notch. i feel as though everyday, i'm on the catch-up with failure looming on the hind-side, setting the pace for me.

i have always treasured my quiet moments. time to reflect, time to plan...time to think. this gives me comfort. i get to indulge myself with the fantasy that i have control over my life. now that i get little or no time for these, i squeeze them in and make do whenever possible, like tonight.

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drain.

yet another 2 hours of a good night's slumber for me last night...this is turning out into a regular thing so i'm hoping the numbness kicks in soon.

and now here i am. 12:45 a.m. and still very much engaged with this blog (or at least trying to be). come on, i'm obviously exhausted and i am milking it. at least if i suck, you know as well as i that i'll be slapping you with "sorry, it was late/i was tired".

bah, that's it for tonight.

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certified.conio.two

and yet another one....

I thought Jay's ex-girlfriend was really out of our lives. But heaven only goes that I was wrong. Kakakasal pa lang namin nun when Jay received a uninamous text. "Meet me at the clinic." I had a stinking feeling in my butt. I told him not to go. It might in danger him. Pero sabi niya, ok lang daw because life is what we make. Tumahimik lang ako. Sabi niya, "Penny for you talks." But I didn't know what to say. Beggars can't be losers. Isa pa, worried talaga ako na baka yung girl yun. Jay said, "Can't got your tongue?" I tried to smile at him. Kahit di ako nagsalita, actions speak louder than works, di ba?


Be that as is may, umalis pa rin siya. I was out of the loophole. After a few hours, I called him on his cellphone. But my calls fell on Jeff's ears.; Lalo akong nag-worry kasi I didn't even know Jeff. Sabi na nga ba di na dapat umalis si Jay. That's what I'm talking about it.


So I tried calling some friends who will help me find Jay. That's what friends are four naman di ba? But I just faced a blank mall. I had to do this alone. Nag-taxi na lang ako. Pero ang mahal na pala ng plug down rate.


When I got to the clinic, the security was really buffed up. Di basta-basta makakapasok. So I said, "I beg your cordon. I'm patient. It's my favorite virtue nga e." Nagduda yata yung isang guard. Hinawakan ako sa arm. The nerd! I shouted, "Don't touch me not!" Buti na lang the other guards were nice and said, "Come on, let's join us."


When I went inside, parang I've been there, done there. Nung walang nakatingin, nag-explore ako. Nakarating ako sa top floor and I had a bird's IQ of the clinic. I could not explain it but I was drawn to a room on the floor. Siguro Divine Intermission na yun.


Parang may narinig akong umuungol. I was thorn. Di ko alam kung aalis ba ako o papasukin ko. It made me stick in the stomach to think that Jay and his ex-girlfriend were there. I tried to tell myself to slower my expectations. But to tell with it! I had to strike while the iron is not. I had to hear the truth from the corpse's mouth. I barraged in. O my gas! Si Jay, naka-strap sa operating table, parang genie pig sa isang nakakatakot na experiment. He was on the cutting edge. He was bleeding. At ang doctor na nagpapahirap sa kanya, ang ex-girlfriend niya at ang bago nitong boyfriend, ang nurse na si Walter. Doon ko napatunayang blood is thicker than Walter.


Guess watch? Di ko alam kung paano ko nagawa pero I was able to search and rescue Jay. Siguro adrenaline brush na yun.


Now, he's recovering. Nag-sorry siya na hindi siya nakinig sa akin. I know it's a better pill to swallow your pride so it's forgive and forget me not.

All swell that end swell. I know we should kiss and put on makeup.


Ang ex-girlfriend naman niya at si Walter, nakakulong na. Detention is really better than cure. So the moral of the lesson is: if symptoms persist, insult your doctor.

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certified.conio.

an article circulated through email...funny shit!

We' ve been friends for a long time ago. We come from the same alma mother. Actually, our paths crossed one time on another. But it's only now that I gave him a second look. I realized that beauty is in the eyes. The pulpbits of my heart went fast, really fast. Cute pala siya. And then, he came over with me.

He said, "I hope you don't mine. Can I get your number?" Nag-worry ako. What if he doesn't give it back? He explained naman na it's so we could keep intact daw. Sabi ko, "Connect me if i'm wrong but are you asking me ouch?" "The!?!!??". .. ang sarcastic na sagot nya. Aba! The verb! Parang siya pa ang galit! Persona ingrata!!! Ang kapal niya! I cried buckles of tears.

Na-guilty yata siya. Sabi niya, isipin mo na lang na this is a blessing in the sky. irregardless daw of his feelings, we should go ouch na rin. Now, we're so in love. Mute and epidemic na ang past. Thanks God we swallowed our fried. Kasi, I'm 33 na and I'm running our time. After 2 weeks, he plopped the question. "Will you marriage me?" I'm in a state of shocked. Kasi mantakin mo, when it rains, it's four! This is true good to be true. So siyempre, I said yes. Love is a many splendor.

Pero nung inaayos ko na ang aming kasal, everything swell to pieces. Nag-di-dinner kami noon nang biglang sa harap ng aming table, may babaeng humirit ng, "Well, well, well. Look do we have here." What the fuss! The nerd ng babaeng yon! She said they were still on. So I told her, whatever is that, cut me some slacks! I didn't want this to get our hand kaya I had to sip it in the bud. She accused me of steeling her boyfriend. As is!!! I don't want to portrait the role of the other woman. Gosh, tell me to the marines! I told her, "please, mine you own business!" Who would believe
her anyway?

Dahil it's not my problem anymore but her problem anymore, tumigil na rin siya ng panggugulo. Everything is coming up daisies. I'm so happy. Even my boyfriend said liketwice. He's so supportive. Sabi niya, "Look at is this way. She's our of our lives."

Kaya advise ko sa inyo - take the risk. You can never can tell. Just burn the bridge when you get there. Life is shorts. If you make a mistake, we'll just pray for the internal and external repose of your soul. I second emotion.

Please Mine the Plotfour gap...

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evan.almighty.

i was able to watch the premier for evan almighty at shangri-la earlier this evening...the tickets came out of nowhere and the complimentary food stub was a nice touch. it was like being a kid again, just being dragged around and getting goodies. here's what i got:

• a large drink
• a pack of chips
• a hotdog sandwich
• a magazine (metro)

we arrived extremely early as we had nothing else left to do, a full hour at least. we were the only people there so we started wondering if the tickets were legit...the usher told us to come back a little later since preparations are still being made. so we killed time and walked around...after about 45 minutes, we went back and saw that a number of people were forming a line near the entrance, so we joined them. after making us stand for about 30 minutes because they were trying to capture their event's success (shown by people patiently in line) through videos and photos.

when they've had their fill, the line started moving.

people getting in were handed an evan almighty t-shirt. i was desperately looking at the t-shirt stack as it kept thinning as more people got in...then we were almost there...two more...and that was it, the last shirt was handed to the guy just in front of me...dammit! then the usher started getting something from beneath the table...i was still secretly hoping for more t-shirts but was handed out a june issue of metro magazine with juday on the cover.

then while settling in, i got drenched with the cola i was drinking. then came the hosts. it was only at this moment that i found out what this premier was about. it was a sky cable / star movies event. after the ceremonial "thank you to our sponsors" speech, they gave away 5 on the lot foldable chairs...naturally, i didn't win.

after the singing of the national anthem, the movie began....


so what's the verdict?

hmmm...

it's a so-so movie. funny at times, but mostly reused skits. i'm going to write a more in depth review when i have time. but for now...

watch it if you're a habitual movie-goer and you've got nothing else better to watch...this was never meant to be a go-out-of-your-way-and-watch-this-movie movie. hahaha, i'm liking the words-separated-by-dashes thingy. i think i'm gonna use more of it till i get it out of my system.


...oh sheeep! it's almost two, got to sleep. good night folks. :)

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