bird's.feather.

lets say your friends are shallow, money-grubbing whores... then most likely you are a deep, philanthropist saint. right?

a lot can be said about an individual through the company that they keep. so in line with my dissection of friends, let's then move on to the individual and their friends.

most people will make several groups of friends throughout their lifetime. it may come one after the next, several groups at the same time, in some cases groups can merge and form a bigger group or groups might implode and be divided into sub-groups. no matter what group(s) you belong to, this has an impact on you as an individual. so lets just say you know yourself very well... and you consider yourself as an overall good person. you're respectful to your parents, you heed the teachings of your church, you abide by the laws of your country, you don't do harm to others, et cetera.. can you honestly picture yourself having a lewd, rascal, criminal, immoral character as a friend? i doubt it.

friend selection is crucial in the character formation of a person. this will in a way determine who you are, what you want to be, and what you will be. simple enough? well, most people just brush it off and say that a person may be their friend but that doesn't say the he/she is like that... yeah right. you underestimate man's adaptive qualities. try surrounding yourself with a group of nerds... give it a month, it can only go one or the other. either you become a nerd or you crack and get yourself out of the pack.

you might say that you're just hanging out with them because you don't have a choice. you can only pretend to be someone for so long. the fact that you even consider yourself pretending is indicative that you don't like to be associated with that group. so what do you do? disassociate yourself. look for a new group. don't settle. fool yourself long enough and you unknowingly become a part of that group.

man should always be in a search to better (him/her)self. friends can either provide that boost or they might hold you down. you may have had fun but you might end up nowhere in the process... at least you had fun right? well, given the right set of friends, you can have fun while realizing your full potential. now that's the challenging part... finding friends that'll bring out the best in you.

so, who are your friends?

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buds.

friends... a lot has been written about them... here's my stab at it.

let's try to differentiate them by acquaintance. so this means you have different sets or 'degrees' of friends.

first degree friends are those which you got to know without anyone forcibly introducing you with each other. these are for the most occassions where you get your 'true friends' or 'best friends' from. you became friends because you've had a chance to spend a great deal of time with them. a typical scenario would be school, more specifically on the first few days of it. you're thrown in to a class... you have some sort of conversation with a seat mate, then as you get around familiarizing yourself with the rest of the class, you have the natural tendency to stick to the ones that compliment your personality. so geeks go with geeks, bullies start recruiting their crew, the 'elite' band together feeding off each others ego, and loners... well let's just say they find their own friends within Ü. it doesn't matter where it is... be it school, work, or your community. you start off wide, then gradually filter it till you get comfortable enough to settle.

second degree friends or acquired friends. these are the people you had to brush elbows with because of a first degree friend. at this point, you may think that "since this person is a friend of my friend, then most likely that person should share most of the qualities i found admirable with my friend..." --it should but don't count on it. when loyalty comes into play, your second degree friends will turn on you faster than you can say 'shitpissdickcuntfuckass'. and why wouldn't they, you were never really their friend to start with... so naturally they will side with their first degree friend.

active friends. these are your current company. they may not be your true friends but since they are the ones readily available, you spend more time with them. good for those quick chats and easy enough to drag when you want to go out.

inactive friends. these are most likely your first degree friends back then but due to certain circumstances, you only get to be with them when special need arises and your active friends lack the history and understanding required.

groupees. these are friends that go well with a group. yet you wouldn't waste your time trying to get into a real relationship with these type. they may be fun to be with but you don't see in that person the depth neccessary to engage in a serious dialogue that will end up having you enlightened in the process. another kind of groupee friend is that which when within your group, everything seems great but when left alone... it gets all awkward and conversation means constantly grasping for topics to keep each other talking.

forced friends. well, these are not really your friends but you are required to be civil towards them. be it a favor for a real friend or just common decency. you may have nothing in common, you may even despise the person... grit your teeth and dig up that smile cos you have to deal with this person whether you like it or not.

friends for benefits. this is where a person befriends another for personal gain. it can get as shallow as getting into someones pants or to advance a person's position, or making friends with the right people to get yourself established, getting the right image/status through friends, milking the favor cow... and so on. here you dance your way into being wanted, accepted and recognized. put on a great show and soon enough you will reap the benefits. of course there is no doubt that this is wrong... though everybody does it... most of us tend to be hypocrites with the audacity to deny.

the dynamics of friendship are so complex that you can never fully enumerate all types... these are just a broad classification of some of the more common types.

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but.

don't you just hate it how some people think they know how to run your life better than you do?
i just had a major argument with my mom. belated happy mother's day.

yes, parents do know best...
but sometimes, they seem to overlook things. 'what's best for you' may not be what's gonna give you the fulfilment you seek.

i know their reasoning might come from the observations they've had...
but observations are different from experiences.

with parents, it's all playing it safe and not taking chances...
but risk is a part of life. you don't go through a full life unscathed.

they tend to look at things as black and white...
but color brings intensity, depth and meaning to an otherwise bland existence.

the saying 'papunta ka pa lang, pabalik na ako' implies that they know what lies ahead for you...
but it does not mean that they can predict what you feel when you blindly follow the dots they laid out for you.

parents say that they're just trying to steer you away from their past mistakes...
but if they let me make the choice, at least the mistake i make is mine.

they have a way of weeding out what is good/bad for you...
but what's good/bad for someone can never be absolute.

i have nothing but respect for parents (the normal ones ie. not crazy, abusive, neglectful, etc)...
but come maturity, you have to also respect the choices of your children. just be there for them when they come running back to you hurt. even if they have been forewarned. this way, they get to live their own lives. not just an attempt to fix the life you wanted for your own.

so, do i defy...? if only i had a more solid ground to stand on.

* speaking of crazy moms...

Mom drives son to rob jewelry store
Wed May 16, 2007 4:09PM EDT

BERLIN (Reuters) - A 36-year-old German mother-of-five drove her son to a jewelry store he wanted to rob because she was afraid he may come to some harm, Bild newspaper reported Wednesday.

While her 17-year-old son and his two accomplices stabbed and robbed a jeweler in the eastern city of Dresden, the mother waited outside in the car.

"I knew he wanted to rob the shop and I was very worried about him," top-selling Bild quoted the mother as saying.

A court sentenced the woman to three years and ten months in prison, a spokeswoman for the court said.

... taking soccer moms to a whole different level. Ü

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bday.

now that it's over and done with...

birthdays can take on several forms as people progress. as a kid, you look forward to it for reasons of material nature, gifts. once gifts loses it's lure because you have the capacity to buy the things you want, you celebrate it as an excuse to be partying/drinking with friends. i say excuse because at this time, all your friends has lives of their own... gathering up the herd can become daunting (reasons: work, girlfriend/boyfriend, husband/wife, kids, location, time, money, etc). after the draw of alcohol and partying weans... it then turns into it's truest form... a celebration of life. during this time, you gratefully look at the years past and how far along you've come since your humble beginnings. finally, as it winds down... birthdays ceases to be a celebration. because once you reach a certain age, it just serves as a reminder of how much time you have left and what still needs to be done. a ticking clock.

different stages, different reasons.

where am i in all this? i still like getting gifts. Ü

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radio.forbidden questions.ethel booba.

this week's forbidden questions... fun-fuckin-tastic!
got this one from pinoyexchange... tinatamad na ko mag type.. hehe
creds go to whyte.

* she said she didn't shave (upon learning that eric frustuouso showed his privates)

01 WAS THAT REALLY YOU ON THE SEX TAPE?
yeah.actually twice na nyang inadmit on-air.

02 ARE THERE MORE SEX TAPES?
hindi na daw lumabas kasi tinapon na nya lahat.finger video daw yun hindi "sex tapes"

03 WORST THING YOU'VE DONE TO A FAN
sa sobrang pogi ng fan, she slept with him.mukha daw kasing artista

04 HAVE YOU SLEPT WITH ANYONE FAMOUS
a lot, kahit pa sya hindi niretoke.mga almost 10 daw

05-08 WHAT IS NOT REAL ON YOU
my brain
- nose
- cheek
- boobs
- butt

09 EVER GONE OUT WITH A MARRIED MAN
oo. her second boyfriend and alex crisano

10 WHICH LOCAL FEMALE CELEB NEEDS TO ADMIT PLASTIC SURGERY
regine velasquez (nose eyes lips boobs)

11 LAST TIME YOU PLEASURED YOURSELF
thursday last week. hindi daw nakavideo tape

12 HOW BIG IS ALEX CRISANO'S WANG
9 INCHES.its so delicious daw na shock daw sya.nag isip daw sya ng 2 months bago she do it.

(MO said troy was the biggest at 8 and 1/2 but then ethel said I DONT THINK SO.so that made MO and MOJO sort of conclude that troy is among the 10 she slept with)

13 LOCAL CELEB SHE DOESN'T LIKE WORKING WITH
masastartsruck daw sya kung makakasama si dolphy kasi sa status nito. (not really the answer to the question)

14 WORST B.O IN SHOW BIZ
lahat ng mga taga showbiz na nakatrabaho nya mabango naman except the models she workded with.john mullaly (french canadian male model)

15 MOST PLASTIC PERSON
marami. si maui, JOKE! sobrang dami di nya natandaan.
miriam quiambao, nafefeel lang nya.

16 HOW OLD WERE YOU WHEN YOU LOST YOUR VIRGINITY
19. late bloomer sya.di naman "nagwala" after that.she didnt felt the pleasure that time so it took two years she got the hang of it.

17 HOW MANY ONE NIGHT STANDS
yan na daw agad.madami daw.more than 10.medyo may pagkaconservative sya

18 CRAZIEST PLACE YOU'VE DONE IT
CCP COMPLEX!ang cheap daw nakabike sila that time when she wasn't still in showbiz yet.yung mga nirerent na bike dun and she did it sa bike

19 IF SHE WOULD HAVE ANOTHER BASKETBALL BF, WHO WOULD IT BE
she thinks magaling ito bilang BF kasi matagal na nyang kilala ito.
jayjay helterbrand

20 SPIT OR SWALLOW
ano yun? sabi nya (mojo making a demo with sounds )
once lang sya nag swallow kasi sobrang picky daw sya

21-27 NAME THE CELEBS SHE SLEPT WITH
she denies she slept with troy. parang perception lang nya but then she took it back.she did it before he was with aubrey
- troy montero
- jordan herrera
- rich herrera (model)
- drew arellano (nagwala si mojo ) she kept his belt until now
- wendell ramos (ang ganda ganda ko mamatay kayo sa inggit - ethel)
- andrew wolfe

maui asked if she slept with paolo bediones - NO.she only kissed him. di daw sya mahilig sa sobrang moreno.

- she also slept with wendy alvarez of PBB (experiment lang daw)

28 AMONG THE 7 FAMOUS SHE SLEPT WITH, WHO WAS THE BEST IN BED
- DREW ARELLANO (upon suggestion of mojo) kaya nga galit pa rin daw si drew sa kanya (ethel)

29 AMONG THE 7 FAMOUS SHE SLEPT WITH, WHO WAS THE WORST IN BED
- WENDELL RAMOS. pinapatay ang ilaw tsaka walang foreplay parang wala lang. pero maganda daw ang katawan nito

30 EVER SLEPT WITH ANY POLITICIAN
wala pa daw.

31 DARE: MAKE OUT WITH MOJOJOJO
LESBIANISM to the max as per mojojojo
hinimatay ata si mojojojo. slow moist kiss pero walang tongue action
1st time daw ni ethel sa bakla. mojo's hyperventilating

TROY MONTERO called in the show to DENY Ethel's "revelation". Ethel said he might not have recognized her since she was not yet "retokada"

32 GMA OR ABS CBN
GMA. maganda ang bayad at mataas ang ratings

33 WORST DRESSED CELEBRITY
janelle of wowowee

34 HOW FAR SHE WENT TO CHECK HER BF'S "FIDELITY"
sinusundan nya.check cellphone and emails

35 DUDE WE ALL KNOW YOU'RE GAY
erik santos

36 ILLEGAL DRUGS
once, marijuana. she hates drugs thats why she hates her mom.

37 SINO GUSTO NYANG MAKA ONE NIGHT STAND
dj mo. controversial daw si mo gaya nya kaya sabi niya "LETS CONTROVERSY OURSELVES" LOL ROTFLMAO

38 OVER RATED SINGER
disappointed sya kay lani misalucha. parang apektado ang boses (I assume) after her retokes

39-40 DARE: SHOW US THE PUPPIES (two points sa sobrang laki)
anong puppies?nasa bahay daw.
"kayo naman madali naman akong kausap.sana inuna nyo na yan" - ethel

...that's all from the transcript. now as per tradition... since the guest was able to finish the entire set, they get to choose and kiss one of the 3 dj's. ethel chose the 'reluctant' mo... now, instead of the all too common smooch, ethel said that mo' had to kiss the puppies... haha. sweet! after some convincing (ahem) from callers and everybody in the booth... he kissed em.

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blank.

i'm working on a love letter...now this may sound weird, but it's for a guy. no, i haven't switched sides genderwise. it's for a lady friend. i don't know what's more messed up, the fact that i'm writing a love letter to a guy or my friend asking someone to write a letter for her boyfriend...ah, kids nowadays...dammit! i sound so fuckin old.

anyways, i haven't decided on a theme yet or how it'll go exactly... the only thing i was given is that it is for their 1st year anniversary as a couple and that i should include how 'cute' her boyfriend is. the hard thing about this is, her boyfriend and i don't really get along that well...in other words, i hate the fucker!

hey, friendship means that you pull through your friend when they need you so i'll take it on. i guess i'll just make use of subliminal messages and a whole lot misdirection. y'know, take shit and sprinkle flowers all over the damn thing to make it fragrant and beautiful. that way, everybody's happy! (insert evil laugh here)

nah, just kidding. i won't do that, i'm just really having a tough time writing praises for someone i despise. and thinking of how to convey through words the beauty of being in love at a time that you're emotionally wrecked doesn't really help either. i have to find my 'happy place' soon if i am to finish this... i get reminded of dr. cox (scrubs) and his daydreams when elliot, carla or jordan start yammering. hahaha. i miss watching scrubs... here i go again...

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bull's.destiny.

looking through my google personalized page, i found this...my horoscope for today

Your key planet Venus is receiving intense instructions from powerful Pluto, urging you to express your buried passions. Your feelings are being pulled out into the open, forcing you to expose hidden elements of your life. You can make major breakthroughs, even if your direction is not clear. Current struggles can rekindle the fires of love and desire.

hmm...but pluto is no longer classified as a planet, so does this mean that this reading is inaccurate?

i've never been a solid believer of horoscopes, tarots, fortune telling and all that hoop-la but sometimes it gets freakishly close that you start to wonder how they do that shit...but i'd still like to think that i am the master of my destiny... what happens in my life entirely depends on the choices i make. these choices are my reaction to events. which is in turn derived from the collective action of people that has a direct effect on my life and certain circmstances that i have no control over. so if you think about it...no matter what happens around you, you still have the final say on what will happen next.

still, the horoscope hits close to home...

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blog.gender.

with all this anonymity crap, i came across this site that analyzes the way an author writes and based on the words that he/she uses, predict the authors gender...

GenderGenie

now, i tried my own shit on it and guess what..for the most of the entries... female!

the only predominant male thing i wrote was twentyfour. it had 0 female keywords. and on very few occasions (less than 3), while saying male, came very close when it went down to the scores

fuck! i write like a girl Ü...

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radio.forbidden questions.aliya parcs.

i was able to catch another show. this week, the celebrity guest was singer aliya parcs. i particularly liked the way she spoke. but sometimes she gets borderline rude. she kept on saying how she didn't care and kept on judging the relevance of the questions.and she kept rationalizing her answers. as expected, she didn't make it all the way to 40. she got to answer 17 (not sure but around that figure). the important questions: lost her virginity - 17, last time she pleasured herself - a few months back (maui on the other hand said 3 days ago, slut! hahaha), ever slept with a celebrity - yes, spits or swallows - she spits. the question that caused her to tap out was to name 3 celebrities she's slept with...when asked if she and jericho rosales got it on, she just confessed to making out with him then tapped out.

a homophobe caller by the name of 'red' or 'ed' graced the show with his insight on how gay people are a disgrace to humanity and that they are a disease. i think he used the term 'genetic disease'. hey, i ain't pro fag but i can be friends with the more decent ones. he started out by addressing aliya and asking her why she's letting herself be worked up by a couple of fags. an inflamed mojo jojo was restrained by mo' and he let red talk provided that he doesn't curse on the air (after blurting out the word 'asshole' on his opening statement). then he went on to saying that mo' is also gay..hahaha. sometimes i find mo' annoying but in a fun 'good times' kinda way but to say that he's gay? come on, he's a fucking perv not a homo! so mo' said that his reputation of being a 'babymaker' clears him of being gay. red then mockingly asks mo's height...5'6 and then smirks. then mo' goes on the defensive and gloats that despite his height, the girls he's been with can never compare to what red has or had (even offered to show pictures). red then gets canned by saying 'i don't give a fuck'. he tried to call again but this time, they don't let him through. what a stupid, stupid man...i mean, i admire the attempt of going head on with bashing mo'. if only he could have just kept his mouth clean and his thoughts sharp. the only reason mo' feels untouchable in the insult department is because of the language. almost all of the callers are just not articulate enough. i'm still looking forward to the day when a caller goes in on an all out insult war with mo' with a fighting chance. ahh..good times!

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